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i’m tired. i’m scared. denying it doesnt change the truth. i wish i could be strong… or atleast fake it…MANAGE PAIN, face it… or just push through it. IGNORE IT! “painful, doubt and a little understanding”…it’s awful to be grown ups but the carousel never stops from turning and u cant get out… it’s hard… it’s painful…

there are no solutions, no easy answers. u just breathe deep and wait for the pain go away… the PAIN gets u when u least expect. it’s way below d belt. pain, you just have to fight it bec. you can control it and life makes more.

they say wat u dont know wont hurt you but the truth is… NOT KNOWING IS THE WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD! it’s not fair either way…

Sometimes I must know my cutoff points and accept my limitations. I just don’t need to ignore it because it will prolong the sadness or worst part of it the heartaches. True but I still do it. And by doing so I forget where am I and who I am. I blame others… I am a victim. But in reality I choose it and I’m not responsible enough to take ownership and have my stand. Then regret comes in… I choose to be on this situation… So let me do my part… Keeping the love or keeping the hurt.

…eow those days that I’m defocused on things that i need to accomplish… things are coming in to my brain and yet I’m still thinking of something/someone.. it’s kinda interesting to make detour sometimes but it isn’t that great if you lose control… I’m a bit in taking detours now but I’m turning right and take some U - turns. I’m not lost but i need to follow signs and ask for directions. Hope we could meet at the right street at the right time. Xiao

I’m not an anti-social, I’m just not user friendly.

…y cn’t u jst let me do d things i wana do… i jst wana b me and i dn’t undrstnd y wud u wna bring me down. i’m only having fun and i’m gonna live my life lyk i wana do…

i’m tired of rumors starting and i’m sick of being followed. i’m tired of pipol lying saying wat dey wnt abt me.why cn’t dey back up off me… why cn’t dey let me live!!! i’m gona do it my way and take dis for just wat it is…

i’m tired. i’m scared. denying it doesnt change the truth. i wish i could be strong… or atleast fake it…MANAGE PAIN, face it… or just push through it. IGNORE IT! "painful, doubt and a little understanding"…it’s awful to be grown ups but the carousel never stops from turning and u cant get out… it’s hard… it’s painful…

there are no solutions, no easy answers. u just breathe deep and wait for the pain go away… the PAIN gets u when u least expect. it’s way below d belt. pain, you just have to fight it bec. you can control it and life makes more.

they say wat u dont know wont hurt you but the truth is… NOT KNOWING IS THE WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD! it’s not fair either way…

diverting is so funny! u’ll enjoy it + u lose more fats… if ur sad and wana take some rest (wat i mean "ur brain to rest") take time and try some sports. playing with a shuttlecock (badminton) is much enjoying rather that "ur HEART over powers u"… he!he! wat i mean take some sports and divert ur stress and ur heartaches into something that is beneficial to ur mind and ur body! go! and try my shuttlecock!

now dat i’m depress and broke… u can see me hanging out a lot and doing my fav. stuffs to ease d pain… gimmicks and chill outs! beer and tequilla pati yosi kabarkada ko na!(displacement, sour graping, projection, bargaining, oral fixated, etc.) just to stay alive and happy outside… but in reality… i’m not… give me morphin… ds make my day so happy… tranquil and peace… no bustling please!!!

life is a bit morbid…1st u will enjoy d company… u’ll enjoy d happiness u share with that person… stay all night and think that life is so beautiful with him… but illusion always end… wen reality comes along in no time! it will make your life so miserable and in pain… cant sleep.. cant communicate… can’t think of the right words to say… the hardest part of it is that you dnt know where to go and what emotions you need to portray to keep the heartaches… i’m down and broke… dnt know when this will last… dnt know wer to hide… but i need to wake up… how can i wake up if i can’t sleep???… how can i explain if i dnt know what’s the real score is???… see it’s difficult… cnt think of something ryt now… coz i’m preoccupied with him…

hell yah!!! this is just the first time i experienced this horrible thing while chilling out and drinking together with my friends in bulacan. i really doesnt want the taste of the said "granma". i had a hyperacidity that’s why my friends decided to brought me to the nearest hospital "sacred heart"… anyways i didnt like the idea of telling something which is not beneficial to that hospital. i just had a great time with the nurses dutied that night esp. the that nurse who massage my upper thoracic part este…. ha!ha! i love it! so u better try this out and see for yourself the goodness and caress of the said hospital + the nurse out there!!! ha!ha! thanks to carlo pala!!!